Monday, January 5, 2009

A Post for Me

Ok...so here is the deal. I know nearly 5 months have passed since my last blog entry and that is inexcusable. This silence has been deafening, ringing in my ears and causing me great stress. It isn't as if I haven't sat down 78 times with the intent of writing the "perfect blog entry" that would explain all of the reasons I haven't written a word in 150 days, while simultaneously catching you up on every little detail of what I have done during that time. I have written and rewritten the opening paragraph to this panacea of blog entries wanting so badly for it to be sincere and from the heart but it always comes out as something forced, self-absorbed (see the title of this entry for the definition of irony) and complete bullshit really.

So I've come to this realization...I just need to write something. Publish a blog post...break down the dam and let what follows follow. This is why this is a post just for me. I am writing this just to take the self imposed pressure of writing a new blog entry off of me, so that I can sit down in the coming days and actually write something you want to read about. Something that tells you what I have been up to and how I am doing (really well actually in case you were wondering). I am posting for the sake of posting, hoping that such an absurd idea is just the cure for whatever equally absurd reason has kept my blog silent these many months.


In closing, I apologize for being a completely lazy POS and while there is nothing I can do to make up for the last 5 months of being a neurotic mute, I can only tell you that I will do my best to get over myself moving forward and just tell you what's up because I know that's all you really want from me anyhow. I miss you, hope everyone is happy and healthy and ask you to come back soon to read a real blog post.

5 comments:

nicole said...

I wish I could stick to the "just do it" motto. Easier said than done. We understand Jordan. It was so good to hear that you are doing well. That's all that matters. Miss you, Nicole

Anonymous said...

Jordo.. I'm so happy to see your words...Quit beating yourself up and stay with the goodness of the moment. You've been busy.. we get it.. you have a real life and you are living it.. Continue to do it.. sort of like a healthy diet or exercise routine. the more you can pat yourself on your back for achieving the goal, the better you will feel. You don't have to write daily but a little here and there is a nice gift to your mother.. your grandmother... and all the friends who love you. I can't wait to hear your funny stories again! Hooray and Happy 2009 and continue to enjoy Z and your visit together. xxoo LubyaJo

Anonymous said...

I'm not going to baby you like the others... write more damn it!!!
Sharon

AK said...

I've been thinking about you lately. I miss you, and I hope that we can have an adventure when you return. xoxoxo

Ukrainianne said...

Nathan just proved me wrong. I'll apologize later.